紅蓮

                                                                               
                                                                               
中南部的月夜讓人心曠神怡 確實不錯
                                                                               
在家待了三天 差點迷失在月色中
                                                                               
猛然一回頭 台北的焦慮就跟月亮一樣 光碩碩圓坨坨 亮的讓人不忍卒賭 不敢面對現實
                                                                               
張開眼睛
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
我愛月夜 一如我享受極限一般
                                                                               
望著月亮 不知不覺忘了今夕是何夕
                                                                               
開著車的學長說 下次他要是再遇到那種勢利眼的女人 絕對要讓她痛到哭不出來
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
你喝過古坑咖啡嗎 那是我們家鄉的特產
                                                                               
當然 在這個屬於月光的節慶 也少不了斗六的文旦
                                                                               
左手一杯二合一 右手表演單手剝柚子 感覺挺好的
                                                                               
柚子總是在夜裡享用的 你認為呢
                                                                               
附近鄰人的家庭烤肉挺也熱鬧 我也享用喧鬧中的寧靜
                                                                               
古坑咖啡有股淡淡的焦糖味 咖啡因也很興奮人 好
                                                                               
我跟咖啡農買了一公斤的生咖啡豆 一千元新台幣
                                                                               
他很熱情 就只是隨手拿了個塑膠袋裝了一把 說半買半相送
                                                                               
我想我會去找人來炒
                                                                               
研磨濾泡後 我很願意邀請你一起來享用的
                                                                               
學長一邊開車 一邊念念有詞 看來他這次受傷頗深
                                                                               
我跟他說 現在人情薄如紙 現實功利掛帥 學長不光是你 很多人是遇不到真心人的
                                                                               
這時我想起了他
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
我前兩週去平溪探勘 社團要去玩
                                                                               
南哥送我們一人一個小天燈
                                                                               
好漂亮的 我把它放在喇叭前面
                                                                               
我想說 明天要跟學妹吃飯 剛好我可以送給他 實在是我這學長作的不好
                                                                               
人家姐姐叮嚀囑咐要我多加照顧 但我實在時間有限
                                                                               
這個小天燈可以聊表我的心意
                                                                               
忽然我的心情好激動 心臟噗噗跳 我以為我皮包掉了手機掉了還是什麼的
                                                                               
凝神一想 我發現這個小天燈原本是應該屬於他的 而不是學妹的
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
我的心情我的小天燈我的所有的一切 原本都應該是屬於他的
                                                                               
但這些都成為過去了
                                                                               
當我不再屬於任何人之後 我發現咖啡不再香醇 領悟不再好聽 不再憂傷 不再快樂
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
客運有時候想抄進來內線車道 警察學長不客氣的還以喇叭
                                                                               
他說 對方知道這樣是不對的 我就比較皮 喜歡釘別人
                                                                               
我說 我們政大人多比較息事寧人 不與人爭是非
                                                                               
他說 該出手還是要出手 不要留傷痕 清場蓋布袋 快速有效
                                                                               
我說 ...我反對暴力:)
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
學長受夠了女人的勢利 把男人當作提款機 司機 苦力 啥的啥的
                                                                               
我說 上次那學姊還好嗎
                                                                               
他說 上美國短期研究所 去三個禮拜就回來 只要去三次就有碩士文憑
                                                                               
我說 那...學姊還好嗎
                                                                               
他說 被醫生甩了還怕我知道 以為我就都不知道...
                                                                               
我說 嗯...那他還好嗎
                                                                               
他說 我告訴你 醫生 律師 檢察官很多都腳踏多條船的 女人對男人有不當的期待
     就不要後悔男人怎麼對付他 我誠實跟他講 我也可以玩玩就甩了你呀 可是我
     不是這種人啊 這種女人就是欠罵 我要是再遇到這種勢利眼的 絕對電話就打
     過去問他父母親是怎麼教的 罵到他哭出來
                                                                               
我說 ...男人當自強
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
今晚的月亮還喜歡嗎
                                                                               
我看不到今晚的 但我知道你看的到今晚的滿月
                                                                               
月亮代表我的心 你也知道這是一首很好聽的歌的
                                                                               
我知道你總是知道我的
                                                                               
還有我內心的寂寥