紅蓮

                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
摸不著根的 瞎修行
                                                                               
摸的著根的 成佛祖
                                                                               
我打開話筴子 翻轉著歷史 看著蚊子飛來飛去 心狠手一捏 傷的是自己的肉
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
這幾天忙著熬夜 看來我還不習慣宿舍的單人生活
                                                                               
放縱著音樂 多的是憂愁煩惱 咖啡配豌豆怎麼沒有燒炭味?
                                                                               
從不相信不蓋被子睡覺會感冒 配合著咖啡因 宵夜讓我忘了明早的行程
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
開始想像輪迴的恐怖 你相信輪迴嗎 我相信的
                                                                               
輪迴恐怖不是在於作壞事會變豬給人吃 而是在於跳脫不出去的迷惘與絕望
                                                                               
我吵架所以我存在 我打架所以我存在 我鉤心鬥角所以我存在 我忌妒所以我存在
                                                                               
今天跟某乙吵 明天跟某丙吵 對象不同 一樣的是自己流轉的七情六慾
                                                                               
該跟人吵該跟人鬧的 總是不缺席 十年前因為這件事憤怒傷心 十年後也會因為這件事
                                                                               
憤怒傷心 生前如此 死後也是如此 年輕時如此 老了也是如此
                                                                               
生不帶來 死不帶去 富貴帶不走 唯有業隨身
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
你看過銃夢嗎 這是一套很棒的漫畫
                                                                               
鐵士代諾對於業的研究誠然透徹 但他對業是從一種被動的態度來出發 果然成果有限
                                                                               
他難以理解凱麗的行動 也肯定凱麗的力量
                                                                               
我是凱麗 你也是
                                                                               
在二十一世紀 我們都是凱麗 從傷痛中學習成長
                                                                               
我們誰也都不是誰的夥伴 來來去去 傷心的只有自己 成長的也只有自己
                                                                               
就因為所見所聞都是配角 你我才是真正的真主人
                                                                               
傷心流轉 流轉傷心 跳不出輪迴 躲不過閻羅 害怕錯愕 你何曾愛過誰?
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
我們都希望遇到好朋友 好室友 好同學 好情人 好父母 好兄弟
                                                                               
但我們是否曾經想過 要成為別人的好朋友 好室友 好同學 好情人 好父母 好兄弟?
                                                                               
跟我約中午十二點十分在校碑 就請不要四十分才到
                                                                               
我希望我情人是守信用 重然諾的正人君子 但我何曾如此期許自己?
                                                                               
我們的生活一團亂 矛盾無助 悲哀嘆息 你可曾試著挽救自己?
                                                                               
"若不回頭 誰替你救苦救難"
"如能轉念 何須我大慈大悲"
                                                                               
我想要獲得救贖 解鈴還需繫鈴人 誰救的了我?
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
                                                                               
很久了 沒人安慰過我 沒人鼓勵過我
                                                                               
我總是熒熒前行 慢慢的走 獨自一人
                                                                               
內心會有日出日落 雙眼也會下雨流淚
                                                                               
我走過嘆息 也走過寂靜
                                                                               
看過風雨 又是一人 拿著掃把 掃地拖地搬上搬下 我總是一人